If I Were To Die by L.A. Cannon

Life never goes as planned. Beneath our dreams and goals lies something that’s completely out of our control—fate.

At least that was how Noah Sørensen felt as he reflected on his past. His struggles. His mistakes. The happy moments, the sad ones, and, of course, him. Kaj Larsen.
They grew up together in a small town, navigating through the confusion of puberty as they figured themselves out and fell in love for the first time. But then tragedy hit, triggering a series of events that gave way to a painful end.
Until their paths cross again, toying with the thin line between attraction and hate.
It’s the worst idea ever, bound for failure and agony. Yet neither of them is strong enough to fight their most primal desires.